Monday, May 13, 2013

Beautiful Hands

Beautiful Hands
 
Long slender fingers, strong nails to grow out and paint…  Truthfully, I get a lot of compliments on my hands.  They’d be perfect for piano-playing.  Too bad I only play guitar.  I could use my hands to model for Palmolive dish soap or Sally Hansen nail products or Barons jewelry advertisements and commercials, I so often hear.  I’ve also heard numerous times that when my nails are painted, they look like acrylic nails, they’re too perfect. 
Last Saturday, I dolled completely up for church the next morning and painted my nails for the first time in quite a while.  As I was lying in bed that night, I admired my canary-yellow painted nails, remembering how my parents had gone on about them again, marveling over how beautiful they thought my hands were.  But what makes hands beautiful? I asked myself.  Was it small, dainty hands and perfectly-painted nails or was it something more?
I thought of my mom’s hands in contrast to my own.  She rarely paints her nails, for it would hardly be worth the time with how quickly they would chip when she washes dishes.  In the winter, her hands are in water so often doing chores around the house that she has to faithfully cream them or they crack from dryness.  She can never grow her nails long without them breaking.  But I also thought of all that her hands do and have done over the years…
Cooking to feed her family’s stomachs, cleaning her home so her family can live in a comfortable and healthy environment, driving to the grocery store every other day, rocking little infants to sleep every night, changing diapers, bathing little bodies, spooning mashed food into eager little mouths, wiping off dirty clothes and bibs, mopping up spills, pulling little socks over tiny toes, brushing a long full ponytail every day and working it into a blond braid every night, playing Polly Pockets between making dinner, taking up a pen and teaching math problems and sentence diagramming, pulling the covers up over little chests at night, altering clothes as her little girls’ bodies began to change, opening the pages of her Bible as the source of her wisdom, giving hugs and taking smiling faces in her hands, drying tears during life’s transitions, tapping out text messages on her phone screen to bridge the gap of distance and keep her family together…
And all that her hands will someday do…
Smooth down her baby’s curls right before her first date, crown her baby’s hair with a veil on her wedding day, feel the movements of a growing baby bump, rock little grandbabies to sleep, change more diapers, bath more little bodies, feed more little stomachs, play more Barbies, braid more ponytails and brush more bedheads, cuddle more little ones, dry more tears, give more hugs, crochet more baby blankets, sew more quilts, type more text messages, write more letters, send more cards, give more and more love through the years… and never stop.
As I reflect on all that my mom has done for my sisters and I and all of the beautiful moments the future holds, the love in my heart overflows into tears of gratitude.  And it pains me to realize more with each passing day that I won’t be here at her side forever and that someday, should God call me forth with my own family, I might be the recipient of those cards and letters and emails and texts that will seem to lessen the distance of miles between our hearts.  That will keep our lives still connected, our hearts still tied, that will allow her grandchildren to get to know her and allow her to enjoy them.  As the saying goes, life takes us to unexpected places, but love brings us home.
Writing birthday cards, lovingly wrapping presents, studying new pictures, posting Crayola masterpieces on the refrigerator, preparing the cozy home for Christmas visitors, reaching for the handle of the front door at the sound of the doorbell, enveloping her baby in a real- not virtual- hug, and still spreading more and more love around.  And in my opinion, that’s what makes hands beautiful.
My mom’s hands may never pass on a Palmolive advertisement.  Her nails may never be painted often, and she may forever have to carry her hand cream around with her.  But to me, her hands are more beautiful than even the most prim and perfectly-manicured delicate hands.  Because they’re hands of service.  Of sacrifice.  Of love and tender care. 
So I study my own hands again.  Manicured canary-yellow nails, long slender fingers, small soft hands… they look like they haven’t seen a day of honest labor in their time.  But true beauty isn’t seen in appearance.  Someday when I have my own family and my own home to keep, perhaps my hands will begin to look much like my mother’s… and growing more beautiful all the time.  I inherited my hands from my father’s side, but I pray that someday I’ll bear even just a little resemblance to my mother’s beautiful hands.
Today is Mother’s Day, readers.  Yes, it’s been a full year already since my first Mother’s Day tribute post A Mother’s Love in last May.  As we celebrate mothers and motherhood, take the time to reflect on all of the sacrifices the mothers in your life- your mother, your mother-in-law, your stepmother, mothers you know- have made and the impact they’ve had upon your life.  And thank them for it.  To all mothers and mothers-to-be everywhere… thank you for all that you do!  You are loved and appreciated more than those around you sometimes take the time and effort to express.  You are a blessing!
And to my own mom, that very special woman in my life…  Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being amazing you, the incredible mom that you are and grandmother that I know you’re going to be.  Thank you for your life of service and sacrifice over the years and for being the understanding and supportive mom that you are in my life even now.  I love you more than I could ever express in words or actions even, but by this post and by every day I live, I hope to show you somehow, someway, just how much you mean to me.  Thank you for daily being a wonderful example to me of a godly wife and mother, of a Proverbs 31 woman.  I pray that someday I’ll be at least half as good of a woman as you are and that God will grant me even just a portion of your wisdom and discernment.  The older I get, the more I realize how blessed I am to have you as my mom, how much you do for our family, and how wise you really are.  I love you, Momma.  Thank you for your influence in my life.  You’re a blessing to me and all who know you.  And I still claim my boast last year as the entire truth:  you truly are the BEST mom in the whole world.
 
“A wife of noble character who can find?  She is worth far more than rubies.  Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.  She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.  She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands.  She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar.  She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls.  She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.  She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks.  She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night.  In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle in her fingers.  She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy.  When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet.  She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple.  Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.  She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes.  She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.  She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.  She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.  Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: ‘Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.’  Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.  Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.” Proverbs 31:10-31
 
 
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~We’ve all heard of the phrase “pulling on her/ his heartstrings,” but heart-chords?  I was struggling to decide what to name my blog.  I wanted it to be a name that was both creative and meaningful.  As I pondered, my gaze fell upon my acoustic guitar where it stands in my bedroom, and the Lord reminded me that our hearts- our lives- are instruments.  They are constantly in song, but what melody our heart plays is each of our own decisions.  They can play a melody for praise or for entertainment.  A musician selects his songs according to his audience.  So do we.  Whether our audience is the world or the Lord, our song will be different.  This blog is designed to first, increase my awareness in finding God and His guidance in my every day and second, to share the music lessons He teaches me in tuning my heart to learn the chords of praise He longs to play on my heart-instrument.  Music is a powerful tool.  Use it for His glory.  “He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God.  Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord.” Psalm 40:3
 
             


2 comments:

  1. ...you have me crying at work! beautiful post

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  2. Haha! And I was crying while writing it! :) Thank you!

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